I was made into a soldier
When I was young, I never wanted to be older
I wished to be a kid but I knew I couldn't falter
A stiff upper lip was the most I could give
any tear that fell from my eye, I could not forgive.
I know this world is mean
but my thoughts ain't so clean
words that scream in my mind
If you heard you'll be terrified
they have defined
my every decline
assigned to keep me behind
and little me has resigned
to feeling less than all of mankind.
I was told to try harder
Those words were a dagger
and once again I became a beggar
Screaming please just accept me!
I thought I was free
but those simple words were the key
they opened the floodgate
and suddenly I was eight
Hold me, just hold me
I think I'm lost at sea
I cant find the person I was pretending to be
I cannot put my guard down
so I guess I will drown
myself in another bottle
Im no aristotle
I don't want to think
it burns as it goes down but still I will drink
maybe this fire
will purify
so I can fly
and dye
my hair once again hoping that it'll take me to another life.
