Naash

I can't tell how I feel.
I have been keeping myself so busy
I focus so intently on what there is to do next
and how to improve in the different areas of my life
that I forget to stop and feel.

When I lay down and it's just me
my mind begins to feel low
and I can't pinpoint why
I have congratulated myself for not feeling depressed for a while
but have I just concealed it with activity?
or am I mistaking tiredness for sadness?

There is a part of me that wants to allow myself to feel sad
but I fear that as soon as I do I'll get lost in it.
So, I let joy press all the buttons then sit back and wonder if I am doing more harm than good.

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Naash

Naash

I'm just learning how to be me.